Better With You

I guess i am just new to this marriage thing, but, well i have come to a conclusion, I dont get it. I really dont. I love my wife and i know she loves me. I love her more today than i did when we first met and we were in our "honeymoon period" (which by the way, i totally believe in). But it seems thats the longer we have been marriage the more confused i am on how to express how much i have grown to respect and love her.

I guess I didnt understand her when I 1st loved her. We were in college and i just got totally swept away by her. Up until that point i had dated alot of girls, and told a few i loved them, but honestly i had no idea what that meant when i said it. Then Emily got into my life and i just couldnt believe it. She became like this stunning force in my life that made me want to be a better student, Christian, friend, son, employee, EVERYTHING, but it was all spinning out of control because i was so in love with her that i sucked at all that other stuff i just mentioned. But all i knew was i would be a success in life as long as i was with her.

So we get engaged and then married and that is when the learning began. I found out that although a girl she was more messy than me. I also found out that although a girl she could hang out with me better than my group of guy friends, who at the time i considered brothers (not that i dont still, but i never see them these days) We had a little girl who i am madly in love with as well, and every little thing seemed great. But no is where the confusion hits. I dont understand how it is i keep failing her as her spiritual leader, her protector and her friend and yet she still loves me like i love her. I respect her beyond understanding. I do. She works constantly for our family, both professionally and volunteer work at South Side, yet not a complain and all she worries about is more cash coming in. She is amazing.

The other side of confusion is why the romantic part so different. When we dated i would here a song on the radio and be swept away with thoughts of her, now that we have matured we have moreso realized what love is, and understood that alot of the song/pop radio images of "love" involves a flavor of the week and not a soulmate. Anyway, the reason i mention this is i heard a song by an awesome artist named Five Times August and the song is called "Better with You" and i think its feel and lyrics describe Em and i to a T. here are the lyrics:

so maybe i've got a lot to learn
or maybe i'm justa hangin' on my words
or maybe it's not a big concern
but if i raise my headwould i understand why i'm
better with you

so maybe there's not a lot to say
or maybe i'm only doin' things my way, yeah
or maybe things will be okay
if i get it together
and do something clever
but make it better with you

so tell me where did i go wrong before you
before you came along
well it seems like i was lost
you showed me how to do things right
now i'm so glad that now you're mine..

so lemme say it all again

so maybe there's not a lot to do
or maybe i'm justa makin' myself confused
or maybe i've gotta nothin' to lose
but if i get outta line
just tell me you're mine
and how im better with you

so tell me where did i go wrong before you
before you came along
well it seems like i was lost
you showed me how to do things right now i'm
so glad that now you're mine

so use me dont let me screw it up
i believeyou oh and i need your touch
just a little spice of you
could never be too much
i believe you oh and i need you now
to make it better off somehow....
to make it better off somehow

so tell me where did i go wrong before you
before you came along
well it seems like i was lost
you showed me how to do things right now i'm
so glad that now you're mine

so use me dont let me screw it up
i believe you oh and i need your touch
just a little spice of you
could never be too much
i believe you oh and i need you now
to make it better off somehow
you make it better off somehow

And here is the song on a video. Enjoy and I love you Em.